A beautiful interruption

29 Jul

I couldn’t wait to get back to work. I had been home on maternity leave for 14 months taking care of our daughter. She had come after several pregnancy losses. Being a difficult pregnancy, I took time off well before my due date to slow down as I prepared for this new season.

After all that time at home, I was now ready to be back to work. Who stays away from work for 14 months? We made all the preparations, got a nanny and I had also found myself a job which was short term in the initial instance.

Few days into my new role, I became unwell alongside my two babies from what looked like a tummy bug. In not too long a time, the kids recovered while I remained unwell from this lingering “bug”. When I didn’t appear to be getting any better but was rather feeling worse, my husband suggested a pregnancy test since at this time I was vomiting a lot and had lost all appetite for food. Convinced that a pregnancy was not possible, I insisted otherwise and refused the idea of testing.

As the days passed, I began to slowly consider the possibility that I could be pregnant and was immediately gripped by fear and anger. I didn’t want to be pregnant again. As I wrestled my emotions, I succumbed to testing and there I was, PREGNANT. I was upset. Upset at my husband 😅, myself and at the pregnancy. Knowing how difficult my other pregnancies were especially in first trimester, I wasn’t looking forward to the experience. I had also just gone back to work after a 14 month hiatus and my only agenda was to pick my career up and just fly. Sadness gripped me. With no family or support system close by, I felt so helpless. What about the job I had just begun? It was a whirlwind of emotions.

Days gave way to weeks and weeks to months and the pregnancy grew and I remained largely well however this was an unwanted INTERRUPTION and for a good part of the pregnancy, I was weighed down and couldn’t help grieving the further delay to my career progress.

The baby in my womb however remained healthy and made his entrance into the world on his exact due date and that baby turns 3 today. We can’t thank God enough for Sam. He is a joy bubble, constantly worshipping, from an early age, his ears are tuned to his Heavenly Father and we have no doubts that Gods hand is on his life.

That year, 2017 turned out to be a really hard one and Sam was a gift of comfort to us from The Lord. His joy, his smile, his presence in our home in what was a very dry season turned out to be a kiss to us from heaven. He is adored by his siblings and his personality stands out. Every morning he runs to my bed and just blesses me with his warm hugs and a song in my ears and through the day he doesn’t hesitate to say “I want music”.

I don’t know how we ever imagined our family was complete before Sam made his entrance. He just came in and took his place. Truly beautiful child. Sam at 3

I am so grateful that despite my frustration and the extreme stress of that season, God in His wisdom interrupted all my well laid out plans. Just yesterday as I looked at my pregnancy pictures from that year, I was reminded of the times when I desperately asked God for the blessing of children after I had had repeated miscarriages and I realized how Sam is one of the answers to my prayers. In my frustration, I had only considered the interruption to my plans and had failed to recognize the blessing at the time. Today my heart wells up in deep gratitude for this beautiful interruption – such a gift to our family and even though I have no plans of having more babies I want to keep trusting God, to trust where He leads and follow Him every step of the way.

How has The Lord interrupted your plans?

How might my little story help you view your life’s interruptions differently?

How can you trust God in this season and embrace His plans knowing that His ways are best?

How can you rest in Him and trust His timing rather than trying to make your plans happen in your own strength?

Let me know if this resonates with you in any way.

~Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand. Proverbs 19:21

~We make our own plans, but the LORD decides where we will go. Proverbs 16:9

~He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecclesiastes 3:11a